Hello!

     I'm glad that you have taken the time to read my ad.  I'm in here for shipping a lot of pot up from Mexico to Illinois.  I've been here since May of '05 and with luck I'm hoping to be out in 2012.  I lived the normal life with a wife and kids, a nice home, good job, paid my taxes, played by the rules.  But, I could never make ends meet & I hated the world and myself for it.  I look back now and see that it wasn't the 60 K a year job that was my problem & the world wasn't against me.  I was simply living outside my means.  I didn't need the 200K house, the biggest pool, hot tub, the big flat screen TV when they came out, the new car and truck, two new Harleys, the best name brand clothes.  I was so worried how I looked to my wife and kids being "the Man", that I stepped out of the box & didn't look at the full picture.  Now, I'm looking at the whole picture and I don't like what I see.

       I've lost everything that I thought I had to have and tried so desperately to keep, house, car, truck, bikes, even my wife.  Yes, I was married.  She is in my house now, with her kids, but she can't handle this time and prison stuff.  Mainly she can't be alone.  She can't pay bills.  She just can't cope.  She has to have a man in her life to make it and I know this and blame myself for not letting her have some responsibility.  But, still, she would need the comfort of a man.  I pretty well knew this and took my important stuff......photos, bike...over to my family and let her keep the house and everything in it....and my Blazer.  She has kids and I don't hate her for what she is doing.  I loved the kids as my own and I guess I always wil

     My kids are grown I get a letter or car at Christmas, what my lawyer didn't take, the courts did with fines.  The irony of it all, I'm in here working Mon - Fri ...8-3pm for $20.00 a month.  I would love to eat some french fires & drink a pop with ice, but I'm making it without all the bells & whistles.  It's pretty sad that it takes laying on steel without a pillow, covering up with a blanket that is as old as you are to get you to see that all that stuff you just had to have really is not what makes this world go around.  It's showing the people that you love how much you really love them and spending time with them, instead of chasing that almighty dollar.  Now I'm here praying that I'll my name at mail call.  That brings me here in hopes that I find a friendship that will help me make it through the rest of this mess I find myself in.